Hey guys, Skorn here with another update for you all.
Now I was going to continue my detailing of what brought us here but instead I'd like to share with you some thoughts about the past, the future, and all in between.
Fuck man! I mean I don't know where to begin!
Recently I've seen some things, things that I never ever wanted to see.
It's like that song said about walking into empty.
Anyway, it's gotten me thinking, about how things were, how they are, how they might be...
I mean shit! It wasn't that long ago that I was focussed, I knew what I wanted to do, and there was nothing that would get in my way... Then they revealed themselves to me, the whispers.
I realised that I was lugging around a sack of mouldy potatoes and only I could relinquish them...
And you know what? I did! And things were good. Really fucking good!
I learned so much, so quickly. How hurt can sometimes be a bandage, and how you have to rip it off to heal, but also, once you are healed, you can open yourself up to be hurt again.
That's what I've done, I've let myself feel something that I never thought I would again, not after the Surrey Incident, and i wouldn't change that for the world.
I guess, sometimes I just wish we could go back to where things made more sense...
Fuck! It wasn't long ago that all I thought about was that day, that the whole concept of a future seemed pointless and irrelevant, now it's all I catch myself thinking about: is there a future? Will we make it? Will I fuck things up somehow?
Does she worry about the same things as me, or am I just some emo twat who's reverted back to being 14?
I don't know the answer to any of this, and frankly I'm too afraid of what the answer would be, and what that could mean.
But after seeing what I saw... Do I even want there to be a future? If people are capable of doing that?
Do we even deserve a present?
>>HAVE A NICE DAY